The day we went to the hospital.
Gideon getting an echo that showed his valve
was failing. He was so sick.
In heart failure a person swells up.
Gideon didn't look like this except the last few weeks.
January 29, 2014
Still in echo. Gideon didn't like these even though
nothing hurt him. He loved to take the stickers
off when they were done.
Our first trip up to the third floor.
Moving up a floor was a good sign.
In just two days he was back in the CICU.
(Cardiac Intensive Care Unit)
The family came to visit. Gideon hadn't been this happy
since we entered the hospital.
When the family left he became very sad.
He continued to ask for each individual
family member. He missed his brothers and sisters.
It was very clear that Gideon knew he was loved and that
he loved back. When everyone left I had a witness that
this is what family is for. We are here
to lift, love and help each other.
The family did that for Gideon.
They really lifted his spirits.
We were in the CICU for all but 4 days of our two weeks.
Gideon didn't like any of the hospital staff for quite a while
but he took to the child life specialist fairly quickly.
He would allow her to come in the room and
bring him toys. He even played with her.
I love to see the pictures of Gideon with a smile
as he sat in my lap.
I have had some feelings and thoughts that I never
expected. I was haunted with the question
if Gideon really loved me and wanted
me for his mother. Through some sacred experiences
and things that friends said I was reminded that
Gideon does love me and wants me for his mother.
"I am yours and you are mine."
February 13, 2014
I have regretted not putting this picture on the blog.
This picture is why we have this post.
This was the last moments we had with Gideon.
The family was saying their goodbyes.
Gideon needed to be in his daddy's lap for his last 4 hours.
At the end I moved the equipment and pulled a chair over.
I sat and held Gideon's feet as he passed from this life to the next.
We will never forget those moments.
Gideon was surrounded by many that loved him including aunts, uncle,
cousins and all of his siblings and nephews.
We love our little boy! I miss him terribly.